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2010-02-12T08:53:00.000-08:00

It's been a long time since I posted...
I think I really am having an identity crisis...on New year's eve...
I hope New Year Wishes do work because I know what I want to wish for.
I wish that I can get all my feelings straight and relive my life and make everything right.

I'm just so mixed up right now..I don't think I'm being real..It feels like I'm following in someone elses footsteps..like I'm always hidden behind the shadows and trying to copy others and their perfect lives which I want to have.

I want to stop feeling so inferior and unsure of myself...I think I have serious psychological issues..how long has this lasted already? It comes and goes so unexpectedly..hah I'm probably developing a split personality..I don't understand myself. I don't understand what I want. I don't understand what I'm feeling. And I don't know what to do about it. I don't know what I need to make things right.

Or maybe I just think too much..Let me think...

2009-12-21T07:07:00.000-08:00

I feel that my life is really screwed up now...
Cs is away for that china immersion trip...and I obviously can't call her up to talk.
I screwed up things between you and me Ave...I'm really sorry.
I have been skipping training since..well a long time ago...hence haven't spoken to hui hui or amelia in a long time...
I no longer have cathechism classes..I won't get the opportunity to talk to my classmates.
Sab has left me for Germany until next year..
I've been grounded and hence have skipped every class outing...
I feel like an outcast..have i been abandoned?

My life is screwed up. I've screwed up and ruined everything for myself..heh
It's like I have this emptiness inside of me...Ave, I guess I can feel it now...

I think I know the solution inside...but I'm afraid..I don't want to do it..I'm ashamed...
Someone please...help me?

2009-10-02T00:53:00.001-07:00

urgh seriously pissed off at some people now...but i can't say because i have to be nice and it might hurt their feelings *rolls eyes* whatever....but let me give you a hint:

People who are...so crazy about something that they are willing to do anything despite being forewarned of how tough it is going to be...they are out of their minds!

And no...I'm not talking about ambitious, determined people...I'm talking about people who are obsessed with some unrealistic dream! (seriously not aiming any determined people or something...I admire those people for being so motivated!)

But...alright i suck at giving hints...people who are obsessed with celebs?! are you kidding me???
I really can't take all that hysterical screaming anymore...or the cuteness...

I have nothing against any of you as a person...but if you all happen to see this blog post...
COULD YOU PLEASE STOP THE IDOL OBSESSION! IT'S UNHEALTHY! and not just me other people are irritated as well...please just stop it...or at least do anything in moderation..OR FIND A BETTER HOBBY!

okay next subject...My dad showed this to me and i found it really touching...maybe I'll donate some of my savings to them :)

Please do too!

2009-09-25T07:06:00.001-07:00

Woo! Paper 1 is officially over!
Haha chinese was horrible as usual...but I really hope I did well for english..I feel as though its my most personal compo I have written yet! Haha and GOD HELPED ME TO OVERCOME MY FEARS! :) Just like the main character in my composition haha..:)

I nearly had a heart attack today...I nearly lost my wallet at KFC during "class" dinner (not alot of people went la...all ponned school after that...including me! ) and I was feeling really pissed with some people...but anw...

As we were heading to the mrt station..I REALISED I LOST MY WALLET!
I shall try to dramatise it a bit....

As I raced towards the entrance of KFC, I felt my heart pounding loudly in my chest. I dodged past a crowd of noisy students, weaving between the crowd. The same thoughts kept running through my head: Is it still there? Could it have been stolen already? What am I going to do?!?! I was panicking as I opened the entrance door, a sheen of sweat covering myself from head to toe....and bla bla bla okay I won't continue anymore...
But I found my wallet! Thank god! Haha :)

okay i'm bored and going to study oral >< good luck all for tmrw!

2009-09-24T04:05:00.001-07:00

Oh man...today i utterly failed to study anything at all! I ended up falling asleep! So I'm going to start chionging now...

but before that i want to describe my first time to a professional hair salon! whee! I think my hair looks so good that I really don't want to wash it! :)

So at first i was really scared and stuff because well it looked professional and all its customers were all older people??
But then they made me feel much better after offering me and my mother drinks...:) 1 point~
And then they cut your hair and stuff...oh i though it was quite cool that the thing you know they cover you with to stop hair from falling on your clothes? it had sleeves!~ haha okay I'm easily impressed....
Then after that they wash your hair and massage your scalp and neck! damn shuang...(but I was still feeling slightly uncomfortable because i was wondering how many students in school uniform do they perform this service for??)
and then they give you a blowdry and cut your hair again...and they put some cream meant to improve you hair quality or something...and it smells really good! Like apple actually....

Super cool la!~ I love my hairstyle :) hope it lasts till tmrw!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

alright i better start going to mug now >< have alot of catching up to do for the time wasted this afternoon...crap! btw abit of extra information:
Trichophobia=fear of hair!

2009-09-23T01:54:00.000-07:00

This is a post to wish everyone good luck for their mid year exams! :) haha the picture is just random!

And then I feel like reflecting today...so...ya...
I was thinking that I would like to thank hanyu...for letting me not be afraid of admitting stuff...
You know everyone hides stuff because they will be scared how others may think they are weird or something?
Well but hanyu you let me realise that well i'm not the only one who thinks about stuff like that?
Like...about how it would be to be in a world described in a book? And imagining what it would be like to have magic powers and other stuff like that? Yeah...I bet it sounds kiddy....
but I guess that's just me...and well..I never discussed all my secret dreams and fantasies with others because I'm afraid I'll be seen as childish and be a social misfit?
Now not so hesitant I guess..:) don't laugh though please?
I just realised that i'm hiding alot of stuff...ah well still going to keep quiet about most of them though :) shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............:D

2009-09-22T02:54:00.000-07:00

Haha superheroes turned old! I guess we can't be perfect forever...quite a comforting thought for me actually :)

2009-09-22T02:33:00.000-07:00

Hey! just taking a short break from revising for a while...can you believe the eoys are only 15 days away? Hanyu and Clara are both stressing me out with their countdowns...so to destress i shall...look at pictures of sasuke :)
Haha :)

I learned 2 things today...
1. The defination of 'taupok' is...a highly compressible piece of brown beancurd! :)
2. Chem and bio textbooks are made of that special kind of waterproof paper..so that when you sleep on them and drool, they don't get ruined!

And to motivate myself to study today...i decided to come up with my list of what I want to do after the exams....

I will read all the manga i want! etc one piece..and watch all the anime i want too!
I want to visit the new malls and revamp my wardrobe!
Okay and many other stuff that i forgot actually....but the point is...
I NEED A BREAK TO RELAX! HELP SAVE ME PLEASE!

2009-09-21T06:17:00.000-07:00

:)

I LOVE LONG WEEKENDS...but then school starts again tmrw and the eoys(as amelia has pointed out) are coming again! Panic attack!

So anw i had my 15th attempt to fall sick today: standing in the rain
but I don't really think that its working..God doesn't want me to fall sick...thanks i guess...

I've gotten fat over the weekend after eating so much..bah disappointed in myself!

Okay I really don't know what to say...it seems that most other blogger's lives are much more interesting than mine actually...I'm just wasting time so I don't have to go and study!

Quite a weird touching advertisement...good for wasting time too....
I guess I'm just too tired and inspired today...cheer me up please.....

2009-09-15T06:16:00.000-07:00

FROZEN GRAPES!

That was my dad's idea...apparently it makes them taste better...so we put the grapes in the freezer! And voila we were supposed to get:

Doesn't look half bad...but instead we got something like this:

okay maybe I'm exaggerating but you could seriously knock them on the table and its like knocking a stone or something.....really hard to eat....

So I conclude that my family is an epic failure in:
Making frozen grapes
Art
Growing taller
and for me, falling sick.....

Haha I'm supposed to be studying for bio SPA right now but i just got a little distracted hehe...
Ah well :)

2009-09-10T20:27:00.001-07:00

Haha I thought I should give this song some credit on my blog after its been stuck in my head for SO LONG! and I thought everyone else should appreciate it as well after I've been singing it so often :P

Drumroll please.....AND THE TITLE IS:

I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE PIZZA GIRL! bY JONAS BROTHERS ~~~~~~~~

hahahahahaha enjoy :)

2009-09-08T22:52:00.000-07:00

Haha cute birthday greeting right? My present wished me happy birthday!

Thanks to everyone who has helped shape my life! I know its very hard to be my friend :)

Guess what? It's not raining! Must be my luck! Hope it helps my parents win 4D as well :)
Right now Avelene and Hui Hui are coming over to suntan! I wanna be bronze (birthday wish!)

AND IT IS GOING TO REMAIN SUNNY!~
SAYS THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO WISHES ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN! :)

Thanks mel for the present! It's so cute!

Thanks Clara for your gift as well! I'll use it regularly to hide my handphone from Mr Neo~

2009-09-08T08:57:00.000-07:00

CLARA'S CREDITORY POST! HAHA DONE :)
you rock my socks lah :D

2009-09-08T08:44:00.000-07:00

Haha 2nd post today!
Just waiting for 12 midnight to strike now :)
I'm just so touched at the moment....especially by Avelene's special blog post! www-inspirationz.blogspot.com <<<<< face="trebuchet ms">

2009-09-08T06:18:00.000-07:00

Celebrated early birthday with Clara, Liying and Melody!
Haha went ice skating at Kallang Leisure Park!
And I pigged out again as usual :) and this little piggy is supposed to be doing her homework now...

Ah well....I'll just forget about it for a while...anyway I was just on youtube...And I found this video really touching...

I'm going to stay up till 12 today :) Hope to post the new photos of today soon too!

2009-09-07T19:18:00.000-07:00

Yesterday after training..Nat and Sab came over for a study date! Or what seemed like a study date......

But anyway...IT WAS TO CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY!
And seriously I was surprised.....But i loved it :)
Oh and that's my present! Isn't it nice? I AM A CHAMPION! MUAHAHAHAHAHA
And we all pigged out with ben and jerry's ice cream (another gift!)

Thank you all so much!

2009-09-05T09:33:00.000-07:00

East district Youth Rally today!

Okay..It wasn't much fun but at least I met up with some old primary school classmates!
Nice to see you Crystal, Sabrina, Catherine and Michelle! Nat is sick though...and ended up going to Sheraton Hotel?! (Correct spelling?)

Spera in Deo = Hope in God! <3

I really hope to get to know my catechism class mates more!

2009-09-04T05:39:00.000-07:00

It's the last day of school today! The September holidays are here!

Well...but it's going to be a working holiday though...I'm going to try my best to psych myself into doing some revision...:)
So i was trying out self hypnotism...its kinda cool actually!

So here is the video I found:

try and see if it works! it sort of made me sleepy...apparently some others started clucking like chickens?!?!

Oh and I found out today that teletubbies was a show meant to promote homosexuality....eek!

2009-09-03T02:35:00.001-07:00

I'm now thinking about respect...Should you apologise to someone whom you don't respect?
I'm not entirely sure..

Let's just say a teacher you don't respect confiscated tour handphone because...well you were using it in his class because you just don't respect him and don't bother to listen in his class....
Should I apologise and get back my handphone? Or should I keep my pride and just stay silent till he has to give it back to me...

I do accept that it was my fault that my phone got confiscated though...just wondering if I should apologise....Thinking.....

Haha just did a facebook quiz:
Dear VANESSA SOH, Your name says that you are mostly:

Inspiring but melodramatic

Your name also says you are:

Ambitious but stubborn
Dynamic but aggressive
Moral but jealous

Quite true...

Hey look some pictures of me!
I think I look cute :)

2009-09-02T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hey just a very short post here before I go to bed...
Visited SACPS today...I miss primary school!
We 6fr'ians were all just sitting there with Mrs Teo remembering the past and stuff...
Imagine, not even 15 yet but already reminiscing about the past like old people?!?!
Haha I still enjoyed myself though...
It was nice meeting everyone!
Happy belated teacher's day Mrs Teo...Thank You For Everything :)

2009-09-01T07:53:00.000-07:00

okay now everyone please don't freak but anw..guess what....

THIS IS MY OFFICIAL FIRST POST! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

haha okay just being retarded....oh but not counting the first first post which just says hey..BUT IT IS NOT COUNTED!

alright now to business....hehe

It's teacher's day today! Me, Cs and Ave were suppose to have a major tanning session....but well it rained...this so adds to my feeling tired and unsinspired.....

But anw so we stayed at my house and watched this really freaky movie called (drumroll please...)

THE TRIANGLE! you know the bermuda triangle??

And its not as lame as i thought actually..i mean at first i found it funny but then i got seriously freaked! I needed my pillow!
Well obviously that's not me but it helps you to imagine right?

I'm even scared of looking into the mirror! Chenshu I Hate You :P

Gotta go now....walking back face the wall :)

2009-09-01T07:15:00.001-07:00

HEY!